What can I say?! I am really nervous and I feel sick at the thought of it! As mentioned briefly in my video A Course Of Reflection, I have been going through a range of feelings and emotions. These questions keep going around in my head:
- The quality of the learning and teaching.
- The quality of learners work.
- Have the learners done enough work for the required level (the Internal Verifier (IV) process has not been done yet, but they will determine this).
- Have my assessment processes been consistently strong and fair (at the time of designing, I thought what I did with the assignments were great, but throughout the course I found that they weren't that great. But I couldnt change them too much as learners would be confused.
- How I have managed the course.
But ultimately, the whole course has been run by me and it's my first time doing so. So I am accountable for pretty much what is about to come of it all. Although some things have been out of my control, I still feel highly responsible for everything. Probably more than I should. But that's me being a perfectionist as well. But I don't want anything to reflect badly on myself, as I feel I have done a great job of it all, given the circumstances I have experienced.
The worst that could happen, is that learners would have to do more work. Which would be heartbreaking as I have made the assessment decision that their work has been sufficient. Or, learners won't pass the course at all. But this is one of the main reasons I am doing my assessors qualification.
All I can do is take it as it comes, evidence and discuss everything I have done and be preprared to back up anything that is questioned.
But I am looking forward to feedback and the action plan to see what improvements will be suggested to work on. And hopefully from this, another cohort can start in January with a fully revised and standardised course! Plus, removing the mistakes from this experience. I know the errors done by person through reflection. But I am going to do a SWOT analysis on the course itself to identify any other issues.